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I can’t feel my face

So I had a dentist appointment today.  While going to the dentist in itself isn’t anything special, this was special to me because for the first time in my life I was getting a filling.  It’s wild to think that I’ve went my entire life without ever having a cavity or needing a filling, but I guess my lucky streak came to an end this week.

Since I didn’t know what to expect I showed up pretty early at the dentist office, so I could ask some questions and mentally prepare myself for the unknown.  That’s when they let me know they would be using a local anesthetic to numb my mouth right in the area they would be putting the filling in.

So anyways, as I’m sitting there I start to slowly feel the entire left side of my face, jaw, and even parts of my nose go numb.

To be completely honest, I’ve never experienced that feeling before; couldn’t control my jaw or face muscles, face felt swollen, couldn’t talk, etc. Although it didn’t hurt, the numbness definitely reminded me of the last time I got punched in the jaw.

Then it dawned on me that there are people who actually write rap songs about this feeling.

My mind wondered to Juelz Santana and Lil Wayne, and how they have an unreleased collaboration album called “I can’t feel my face”, and how it’s basically about how they do drugs and shit, to the point to where they can’t feel their faces.   Now prior to this filling, it was just a phrase that I had no connection with whatsoever.  I never did any drugs that would cause me to lose the feeling in my face so it never really hit me.  But now that I’m sitting in a chair, unable to feel my face, I totally see how stupid that is to rap about.

I’mma keep it real here: not being able to feel your face is some discomforting shit.

Honestly, it’s dreadful.

It feels like something you wish only on the worst of your enemies.

Oh word? It’s like that? Well, I hope you can’t feel your face tomorrow, you punk bitch!”

It took 2-3 hours before the numbness wore off and I could actually feel my face again.  It was horrible, yet people are rapping about this shit like its cool?  Nah man, that shit sucks.

Walking into the post office, and only one side of your face works because you cant control the muscles in other side is some embarrassing, horrifying shit.  You look like one side of your face is melting because you can’t move it, and you’re afraid to actually talk to somebody because you think they’ll notice the left half of your face is just hanging there, not working like the right side is.  I couldn’t imagine what it would feel like if your entire face felt that way.

I just wanted it to go away, not write songs about it.

Now, I’ll admit that I’m not into drugs like that.  Never have been.  But if that’s what drugs do to you then I think I’m good over here man.  I actually like to feel my face.

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